Anyone who knows me, knows I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I had just finally gotten myself to a point where I was happy with how I looked in the couple years before I got married. I was in a size 8, and was just happy with who I was and how I looked.
About 2 months after the wedding, I was pregnant…which makes me think I have a license to eat. Everything. All the time.
Now with one pregnancy, I can recover from this, but when K was just six months old, I got hit with a shocker — Dev was on the way. So I start pregnancy number 2 still 35 lbs up from pregnancy number 1…and well, you can imagine the outcome. Add to that starting a work at home career that leaves me stuck in the house, in a computer chair the biggest part of the day…bad news.
If you’ve read here at all, you probably know about my mom passing away last July, which I’m still struggling with even today. I still can’t come to grips with the idea that she’s really gone some days, and battle with bouts of depression.
Guess what depression does to me, ladies and gentlemen? Yep! I eat! It really is a miracle I can still haul my butt off the couch, at this point.
Well, I’m fed up now. I want to go back to somewhat looking like that chick up there. I owe it to myself to feel good about who I am and how I look, and I owe it to my kids to have a healthy mom, who’ll be around for all the special events in their lives and the lives of their kids. I know that my own mom’s weight issues were a very big factor in her death at such an early age (58) and I can’t let myself go down the same path. I don’t want spend another year looking like this:
So I’m jumping in with both feet. I’ve joined Weight Watchers (though I’m having signup issues and can’t log in yet) and I ordered the 30-day Shred to help me get started. I’m hoping that by Blogher there will be a little less of me to hug, and by this time next year, I’ll love myself a little more. Wish me luck and keep checking back for updates!
You can totally do this! It YOU time Mom.
You deserve to feel good about yourself, EVEN now! Follow the plan, make the best choices you can and stay active. I’ll want a full report at BlogHer!! ;~)
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That’s awesome! I’m finding myself in sort of the same place, only I was a SCRAWNY little girl and had three kids and…THERE YOU GO! I just started doing the ‘Couch to 5k’ program. (http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml) I’ve only done one day of Week 1 and I cannot WAIT until running isn’t so hard! You listen to the podcasts while you run and he tells you when to run and when to walk. It’s sort of like P.E. class, without the scary woman watching you sweat who may or may not be straight! HAHAHA!!!
Congratulations on making the choices! It’s especially hard to take care of ourselves when we have kids. Keep us posted and we’ll try to keep you honest!
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Way to go girl. I am sure that you can get back your ideal shape and weight. Rope in your kids to do exercises together and time will pass more easily and you’ll be movitated to stick on this new routine.
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Good luck…I am starting the same type of program for myself. Weight watchers and wii fit. check my blog kendrickkorner.blogspot.com to watch my progres…
Again – Good luck!!!!!!
Heather
Congratulations to you!!! I am there with you, as far as feeling ‘fed up’ and started working out and eating right a couple months ago, and I’m down 20-ish lbs! I have 14 or so to go, want to pair up and help keep each other accountable?
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